Why, why does heart break hurt so much? Why is it that even though i cried over him I still like him? He doesn't like me and yet I yearn for him. Is this some kind of a joke, am I someone's fuck toy? What I wouldn't give to tell him everything that is on my mind. That he is all I think about while I wake, he haunts my dreams while I sleep, and every little thing I look at reminds me of him. Is this love or just lust, only time can answer the question. There is one thing I hope he knows, if I was to die right now I would die happy. He may not like me, hell he may not even love me, but he has made me smile more in these past 2 mouths then anyone did in my whole life. Not only that I'm happy that he is happy, as long as he smiles I will continue to smile, even though it causes me great pain.